Published in:
01-05-2013 | Healing Arts: Materia Medica
Meeting Death
Author:
Timothy Laux, MD
Published in:
Journal of General Internal Medicine
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Issue 5/2013
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Excerpt
Despite 4 years of medical school at a large, tertiary care center; despite 12 months of third year rotations; despite a 1-month medicine acting internship in a high acuity medical intensive care unit; despite advanced cardiovascular life support (ACLS) algorithms, the pushing of pints of pressors and the occasional series of chest compressions delivered to the tune of The Bee Gees “Staying Alive”; despite lost pulses, stopped breaths, and pupils nonreactive to light; despite numerous disconnected ventilators and chain-hung curtains quietly pulled; despite the anger and tears and disbelief and goodbyes of family members; despite daily discussions with a dying patient’s very demented husband about his wife’s imminent passing, each met with the horror of that information being completely new; despite the yellow highlighting on about a half dozen death certificates and the collegial shoulder squeezes of well-meaning residents and attendings; despite eulogies in local western Pennsylvanian newspapers with accompanying photos of younger versions of faces I recognized; despite all of this, I don’t think I had ever really encountered death until I found myself at Kamuzu Central Hospital in Lilongwe, Malawi. …